Mental Health Awareness Week: My Depression
My Depression by Billie, DAWS Peer Mentor.
For my birthday last year my sons gave me ‘Darkness Visible’ by William Styron. It was the first piece of work – academic or layman – that for me gives an insight into this cruel illness. For me it is a feeling of being in a quagmire in the dark, from it being all-encompassing to a flat greyness of nothingness.
It is very hard to motivate yourself when feeling any of the above and therefore hard to engage with services and support.
For me, I have medication and a timetable of: get out of bed, put on day clothes, eat a banana, go out round the block, put on a cap and dark glasses. But try and plan a few things also. Knit, read, listen to audio books (do not watch TV!), paint your nails, draw, write, do the dishes. Use meditation and mindfulness to learn to still your mind and not chase your thoughts. There’s plenty of free stuff online.
Daily pickups to the chemist can be very difficult. On the other hand it is also extremely helpful getting you up and out. The daily contact with the pharmacy – who are most empathetic – a chat, a laugh, a rant, can help me get back some perspective that I lose very quickly when enmeshed in my depression.
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